Regretful Writing

I was poking around on Twitter and came across a tweet about Writer's Workshop which is a place to work on your writing skills and such. Normally I don't do these things (cuz I'm not much of a joiner) but I'm in the process of passing a kidney stone so what else do I have to do, right?

So I chose from a list of prompts and the one I opted for was:

2.) A post you regret publishing.

This is easy as I tend to regret a lot of what I write if it's meaningful to me and not just a snarky retelling of a story. Here we go.

When I first joined Myspace, I put up a blog about racism. There were several reasons for that. I have a racist spouse and he has a friend who insists everyone is a racist which really irritates me because I think that's bullshit.

So that idea came about from a conversation with said friend and the "friending" of me by an ex boyfriend who happens to be biracial. I was thinking back to when we dated and I moved to Detroit and I recounted that whole story with its racist undertones and my opinion that racism is learned and stupid and unnecessary. Sounds okay, right? Not really. Because I went about it badly, offered too much detail and wound up just telling this convoluted story of being a white girl from small town Iowa living in a black area of Detroit and trying to figure out what the hell was going on.

Second regrettable post: one late night just prior to putting my fabulous dog down, I wrote a weepy, make you want to slash your wrists email to my group of female friends and then got the wise idea to add it to my blog with some changes. I still cry every time I read it but the reason it's regrettable is unless you've been in the exact same situation with a very similar dog, it just comes across as pitiful and melodramatic instead of saying something meaningful about relationships with 4 legged loved ones.

I've since deleted my Myspace account and I think most of those blogs are lost forever unless I've stashed them somewhere on my hard drive. That may be for the best. I'm a little more careful now about what I post but not so you'd notice. I'm sure there will be more bad blogging before I'm done.